I find myself in a fairly interesting place in life at the moment, I am incredibly blessed, and so beyond thankful to have people supporting me and stepping in to help me and the pups.
But, I find my heart heavy even still.
Isn’t it interesting how much we long for things no matter what stage of life we are in. When we are busy, we long for rest. When we are hungry, we long for food. When we are stressed, we long for peace. When we are bored, we long for something to do. When we are in the darkest of nights, we long for light. And then, when we are in the midst of the storm, we long for the sunshine.
I am longing for the sunshine. I am in a state where nothing is “wrong” per-say, but I am not particularly fond of it either. I miss a lot of things, including having a solid purpose to work towards in front of me, people to see, and things to do. Yet, despite my feelings, I am confident I will soon be thinking and stressing about something else entirely. Knowing my life, soon this season will be yet another piece of my adventure story.
I am working very hard to keep myself in the correct perspective, and working to find a job (130+ applications sent), and praying myself through this entire situation; but really no matter what, my heart is heavy.
I have no doubts that God is moving, and it will all unfold in front of me… And, looking back, I will be thankful for this time, but for now, I just miss the sunshine.
3 thoughts on “Longing for Sunshine…”
Of course all the relative Bible verses come to mind, Krista, but you know those already. I very, very rarely repeat to anyone the feelings the Lord gives me about a person, but these ones were so crystal clear that I feel I have to tell you.
The Lord showed me that you take him everywhere in your life (I knew that already 😉 ), He is in every little corner of your mind, body and soul. He is always with you. Now this is a time for YOU to learn to be with HIM. There is a difference. This is not a “come on Lord, off we go!” situation, it is a “be still and know that I am God” one. An “I want you quietly by my side” one. A “come and sit on my knee for a while and let the world go by” one. A “take a breather alone with me” one … an “I still have a lot to teach you if you’d only stop racing ahead” one.
Before you start the next chapter of your life with Him, the Lord wants your submission to HIS timing.
Love you, sweet Krista (((hug))) ♥
Thank you Vera!
I appreciate the words, and it certainly is no secret to anyone that I am a full tilt forward kind of person, so sitting and waiting has never been my strength or go-to approach! I will definitely pay more attention, and force myself to sit back a bit more.
It’s not so much sitting and *waiting*, Krista, as sitting and spending intimate time with the Lord with no thought of your future, just living for His presence, I think that is what He wants of you first before He sends you forth once again. Just you and Him – no plans, no projects, no asking, just a still, small voice … “ma grâce te suffit …”