I find myself in a fairly interesting place in life at the moment, I am incredibly blessed, and so beyond thankful to have people supporting me and stepping in to help me and the pups.
But, I find my heart heavy even still.
Isn’t it interesting how much we long for things no matter what stage of life we are in. When we are busy, we long for rest. When we are hungry, we long for food. When we are stressed, we long for peace. When we are bored, we long for something to do. When we are in the darkest of nights, we long for light. And then, when we are in the midst of the storm, we long for the sunshine.
I am longing for the sunshine. I am in a state where nothing is “wrong” per-say, but I am not particularly fond of it either. I miss a lot of things, including having a solid purpose to work towards in front of me, people to see, and things to do. Yet, despite my feelings, I am confident I will soon be thinking and stressing about something else entirely. Knowing my life, soon this season will be yet another piece of my adventure story.
I am working very hard to keep myself in the correct perspective, and working to find a job (130+ applications sent), and praying myself through this entire situation; but really no matter what, my heart is heavy.
I have no doubts that God is moving, and it will all unfold in front of me… And, looking back, I will be thankful for this time, but for now, I just miss the sunshine.