Yesterday was a rough day.. nothing significant happened, but lots of little things just added up to another aggravating day that just needed to be over quickly.


Today I was thinking about how much I really just want hope to return to me… Not a fun little passing hope, but solid unwavering hope that stays put through everything. I mean, I have basic hopes, I know God loves me, and I know “this too shall pass,” but I want the hope that brings joy again… And, it is coming, I can tell. Little by little I can feel myself being renewed, I can feel the pains and stresses falling off piece by precious piece. While some days I for some unknown reason try and pick back up the weights, I am quickly reminded that they are not mine to carry anymore, and I need to let go. 


I need to reboot. Start over. Refresh. Renew. 

“Is not your fear of God your confidence, and the integrity of your ways your hope?” – Job 4:6