Month: February 2011

My Three Loves…


This is how I spent my Sunday evening.. Chatting with my three loves.

Left to right..
Eleazar, Kaedon, and Akierra… They sang to me, read me books, showed me balls, told me what they learned at church, showed me bibles, and giggled like crazy… Loves of my life 🙂

Francis Chan…

I just want to put this out there… I have SO MUCH respect for Francis Chan.. So much.

Here’s why…

  • First, he walked away from his mega amazingly booming church to follow Christ… (here)
  • Second, he continues to seek what is righteous and holy in Christ’s eyes.. no matter what. (here)

How can I not respect a man who walks away from success for Christ?!… And, in the midst of all of it his comment is: “I think there has been too much emphasis on me. I want to be used by God, but I think we have this desire to make heroes out of people rather than following God and the Holy Spirit.”

Amen. I pray the Lord blesses him… but more than anything uses him to ROCK THIS WORLD to glorify Christ even more!

Thank you Lord for men like Him! I am so encourage in my soul to see men of Christ not just “living” a life sold out for Christ.. but actually LIVING a life sold out.. and excitedly talking about it!… Just awesome!.. And, even cooler that, people think he’s nuts! haha!

Let’s Talk…

Today at work, we had a “retreat” .. only in-house. The point was to talk and share how everyone was feeling about the craziness that has been going on, frustrations, etc.. we played ridiculous games (of course) and talked about things we could do to help… Over all it was fine, I am glad the leadership thinks those kind of things are important, but I have little faith that it will ultimately change anything. I will be impressed if they continue the dialogue and ask everyone to continue sharing beyond today. I really hope that is the case… And, I am really praying for a solid amazing Executive Director in June.

Not Too Much..

On my lunch break today I was perusing the Stuff Christians Like blog, and reading the funny, interesting, and randomness that is Jon Acuff’s mind. Well, I stumbled upon his “Proverbs 31 Wife – 3000 and 8 edition” and I read as he talked about the things he loves about his wife.. of course Jon style.. all a little odd and different.. but completely valid!

In this blog he quotes a counselor as saying:

“The one thing a husband wants to know is that he is enough. That his masculinity, the way he provides for the family, the security he gives is enough. The one thing a wife wants to know is that she is not ‘too much.’ That she can be as beautiful and as powerful and as you, unique as God has called her without overpowering the relationship. That her husband is enough to handle her becoming everything she can become.”
I LOVE THIS QUOTE. It pretty much sums up exactly why I am still single, and why I am completely content in that place in my life. When a guy who is confident enough in himself to reassure me that I am not too much for him comes around, I will marry him… And, it probably won’t take me very long to make that decision. But, until then I would (praise the Lord) rather be single and whole then coupled up and broken.
So, to all my amazing beautiful girlfriends who are still single, find comfort in the fact that God knows and has placed the need in us to want to know we are not too much. I mean let’s be honest, we can be a force to be reckoned with if push comes to shove.. and that can be intimidating for anyone.. especially a guy. But, the problem comes in when the force to be reckoned with comes up against a man who is not founded in Christ enough to not only withstand that force, but direct, guide, encourage, or help subside it (regardless of what that actually looks like in the moment).. If a man knows how to handle a women in the full glory of who she is, then God can use the two of them for His full glory… but, if the man cannot (for whatever reason), then they become a poor debilitated sight of what God’s union with us is supposed to look like, and everyone pities both people involved in the relationship.
And, to all the potentially amazing men out there who are single.. Where are you? Why have you not stepped into the full glory of who God created you to be?.. Me and all of my single girlfriends are waiting for you to man up, so please look into that…
Thank you to whoever the counselor was who originally said this statement. That is exactly why I am in the place I am.. I want to be the entire package of who I was meant to be, but that’s a lot to handle, so until a man shows me he can handle it.. God and I will do just fine thank you!

Thankful Today…

Life is never easy.. Have you ever noticed or thought about that? I mean, even when “life is good” there is ALWAYS something either looming or partaking in what is going on right now.

Yet, somehow we in the midst of everything forget all the time how blessed we are..

One of my old youth leaders posted this on her facebook status and I got to thinking a lot about it,

“What if all you had today is what you thanked God for yesterday?”
Well, I determined I would always have food and my family.
I would often have food, family, friends, and my car.
Sometimes I would have food, family, friends, my car, sunshine, and the same day over (I sometimes literally just thank God for my day)… 
I hardly ever thank God for my money, my clothes, make-up, shoes, etc.. Not that I am unappreciative.. I just tend to be thankful for things that legitimately mean something to me or things that tend to be stressers in my life (aka my car).
So Lord, thank you, for my food, friends, family, car, house, job, clothes, money, shoes, breath, and every other ridiculously small thing in my life that I tend to overlook. I am so blessed even when I am stressed and in a piss-poor mood. Thank you that your blessings have nothing to do with me, but everything to do with you.

Just Dance…

I spent two nights this past weekend going dancing… I wanted to find and experience new places around DC to dance, and decided since it was an extended weekend it was the perfect reason to go! Plus, as always the cardio involved is crazy intense, and so much better then running a few miles.

There is something freeing and energizing about wearing myself out dancing. haha The thing that makes it even odder is that typically I dance with men I do not know. But, I love the fact that there is so much technique involved, and it requires a different tactic and response with each guy I dance with. I love learning new moves, and honing my skills.. Plus it helps that I feel totally beautiful in a new way.

When I do martial arts I feel beautiful, but in a skilled, trained, specific, graceful and powerful way. This is just pure “I am a beautiful girl” kind of feeling. Love it, and love how tired I am afterward.

John 15:12-14

“This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you. “Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends. “You are My friends if you do what I command you…”

Thank you Jesus that I have friends who would do this for me.

Help me always view those around me in this way.